2024-09-03

Tree Saga

There's been a development!

My mom remembered that she knew a guy she trusted and contacted him, and he said he could get things done quickly just fine. Almost every attempt to contact the other contractors was met with silence, just dogshit communication, so I canceled the engineer's visit that they finally scheduled with me and I'm moving to the other guy. I hate doing it, but it was my only recourse.

It puts a pit in my stomach to think of the consequences of this. When I canceled he asked me to verify that I was going with another contractor. What if he's reprimanded for losing a customer? Everyone I talked to seemed so nice. But they wouldn't answer my phone calls or texts, and I wasn't exactly being a nag. So it's on them, I guess.

Ugh.

Gaming

Hit both content walls in Fields of Mistria today - the mine and the town upgrades. I could keep playing, but I feel like I'd be doing myself a disservice by advancing years without anything major to progress towards, possibly hobbling my save when they add stuff later. Like, if they added events that take place in year 2, and year 3, and I'm on year 4 when more finally comes out, what then? Does it all just happen at once? I don't want to find out. But I also don't want to stop playing. I'm burnt out on FFXIV at the moment.

I investigated Fields of Mistria and their roadmap said that the game had about 35-ish hours of gameplay at the moment, which, I am sitting currently at 36 hours, so that's a really really accurate assessment. I think the only thing I can do if I want to keep playing is start a new save. I could do things a little more efficiently this time around, have things unlocked sooner. That's 35 more hours I guess. Then what? I investigated other farming games and the only one I was looking at before now, Coral Island, looks like it isn't my vibe. I could go back to Sun Haven. But after knowing the convenience of businesses being open at any hour from Fields, I don't know if I can go back unless it's Stardew.

Speaking of Stardew,

Writing

The fic I was writing during my recent Stardew kick is giving me an ulcer because I started posting it and then Dawntrail came out and kicked me off of it and now I feel no motivation to go back to playing so I can write more. Every time I think about it I feel a yawning pit in my stomach (like the Tree Saga anxiety pit! I have so many stomach pits!). I guess I need to keep posting the fic anyway, because I have a ton of chapters to release already, but again, I don't even feel like doing that. I'm in a really shitty spot mentally right now and it's really dragging me into the dirt.

Thank you Tree Saga,

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